Who am I?
i hope one day i can answer this question, its hard. i,m in like,, identity hell like i can TELL i don't know what i am. i need time. i think.
until that time comes, i,m left with all kinds of shitty thoughts.
i don't wanna be a man, i never really fit in, still don,t id be a pretty piss poor one anyway. don't know how 2 eat raw testicle liver piss deathdrink while lifting hard/defending my 2 wives and 16 kids from a bear with a fire axe YOU DO THE MATH!!
id be a terrible woman too, ill never truly know because i wasn't fucking born one, i have a twin sister and sometimes i think i was never supposed to exist, like we were 1 person.
a woman id assume, but for some reason we split, like i,m all the terrible qualities of that person,, uncalled for, unexpected, unwanted.
this is obv fucking insane also my sister lowkey sucks kinda and is also just as much of a mess as me so i,m mostly just being moody.
i think about it though...
i don,t think ill ever truly be a woman, i don,t even know where the feeling even comes from its a fucking mess. but i know if i pursue it ill be happy in the long run.. i,m pretty sure we kinda just started. still so young.
but not a man. i will die by those words, i know i will because i just started tearing up typing that. ive never taken anything in my life this seriously.
its very murky how far i wanna take things, why or what i am. but one thing.
crystal clear
I,m not listing to the music this place gave me.
Its gonna be my own shit.
And you,re gonna like it.
